this post is for mr davin santa ongsono although it has got nth to do with him.

alright, went for the gz camp ytd. so yea, had qing gong yan and stuff then we went to the music room to watch some videos, play some music and write messages to everyone! right, that was really memorable, esp to niao wang, HAHA. now he holds on to that piece of paper like it's gold.

then, we tried to slp at arnd 2.30 after like 13 games of daidi. apparently, my dear friend kaying claimed that she shi mian, so we took pity on her and decided to chat with her. however, she fell aslp way befor any of us did. she fell aslp at like 4.30! while yunhan was still tossing and turning and i was still trying to unblock my nose. well, nvrm. but at 5.30 i needed to go to the toilet so i poked ky for like a thousand times. SHE STILL WLDNT WAKE UP! i feel bad abt waking yunhan up cus she jus managed to fall aslp so i thought maybe i shld disturb ky instead. but who knew she'd slp so soundly and decided to ignore my pokes. shi mian, yea right.

haha, woke up at 7.30 and stayed in "bed" for quite some time, until ky decided that it's time for us to brush our teeth since she wldnt talk until she has brushed her teeth. some kind of funny habit. serves her right muahahaha. we kept dragging so she had to shut up for like 20 min. then went to have our 愛心早餐 prepared by the sec 3s. after breakfast we still had time left so they taught us how to play this new and improved murderer. omg fun fun so we decided to stay until 12 to wait for them so that we can continue the game :)

headed off to pp with namsy, miss shi mian aka da jie da and niao wang. whr we did sth super embarrassing which i shall not disclose hehe. then we had kfc and tada, went home after that TO SLEEP

hoho, i went to watch alvin and the chipmunks with my sis. it's omg, super cute! theodore's cute. and my sis told me to blog abt this because this is the 1st time i watched a movie with her. as in, jus the 2 of us. so yea, she said this is special and that i shld blog abt it, HAHA

anw, i bumped into KO today agn! i bumped into him 2 days in a row. the 1st time was ytd, when i came back from city hall after meeting hannah. i met him at tampines mrt station when he was abt to go home. and today, i bumped into him at century sq's entrance, HAHA! he was having his break and so he walked me all the way to the traffic light.

i gotta work from 10am to 10pm tmr! cus tmr xandra off, zzz. then it'll be left with me and perry AGAIN. i think that idiotic perry told lucas to make me work full day tmr. so i got full day off today, haha! fun fun fun. tmr's gna be a good day.

HAHA I GOT ACCEPTED INTO TJC. CONGRATULATE MEEEEEEE

today's my off day haha cus i've got guzheng later. anw, here was how the conversation went when my boss was planning the schedule.

me: eh i friday cannot work leh
lucas: okay nvrm, i also dont want you here.

:(

HAHA then everyone kept laughing

k ytd i made a new friend called jun xiong. we were the only 2 tending the shop cus xandra went off early. and omg HAHAHAHA he's even lousier than me. he doesnt knw how to use the cashier. but okay lah, lucas and mag came afterwards and helped out. then lucas asked us to help clear the junk under his stairs. wlao, superrrr dusty. while we were clearing all the customers came. it's always like that. when you're rotting away thr'll always be no customers. so i went to help out and i used the cashier thingy cus jun xiong doesnt knw how. mag stood beside me to help me jus in case i cldnt do it. yea then at arnd 9.15 i went upstairs to feed the dog, walk them, feed them water, then put them back into the cage. poor little things k. the looks they give me are all so pitiful. i'll nvr put my pets at a pet hotel. it took me one whole hr to get everything done and so i left at 10.15 zzz.

anw, lucas said he'll bring me to the training ground! jun xiong says thr're A LOT of dogs thr, esp puppies. they're thr for agility training. omg i'm dying to go

oh i got posted to mjc :(:(:(:( but i handed in the appeal form to tjc alr. hopefully i'll get into tjc.

zomg work is sooooo fun but super tiring! haha everyone else is gna be so jealous of me cus i dont get scolded by my boss :) like, nobody really cares if i slack or anything. now i'm working with 2 other ppl, one called xandra and the other, perry. they're both really nice ppl but perry is an idiot. he makes me laugh all the time and then he tells me to shutup and stop laughing, zzz.

right, basically, i've been cleaning up shit and pee and clearing rubbish and walking dogs and rot when thr're no customers. HAHA okay it isnt that bad lah. the shit and pee and rubbish part is only during the opening and closing of shop.

anw, i walked a chihuahua and a maltese mix westy (no diff. still looks like a westy/ maltese) ytd. k i can nvr ever keep a chihuahua. for the whole journey i was jus worried that i'd step on the chihuahua. and the 2 dogs kept barking at others! i was so bloody embarassed. finally i think glitter isnt that bad.

actually, i learnt like a lot of things over the past 3 days. and i can memorise like almost all the dog's dry food alr. all the promotions and stuff. but i love the cashier most.

today the stocks came in and wlaaaaao, i'm gna tell lucas that he needs a bigger shelf. otherwise he shld order less. me and perry were like "how the hell do we stuff so many bags of food in that pathetically small shelf?!". thr were like 12 cartons k. and later thr were even more. 11 big bags of dog's dry food and dunno how many cartons of cat's canned food. we worked and worked until 2 and then we got so tired. after that we rotted till arnd 7 plus when lucas and his girlf appeared with a christmas tree and decorations! omg we were so excited k, finally thr's sth to do. so we fixed the thing until 10. perry went off to deliver some food and then lucas told me to go off 1st since it's alr late. and yup, that's abt it lah

I FOUND A JOB AT A PET SHOP MUAHAHAHA. THANK YOU LUCAS FOR HIRING ME, I LOVE YOU V V MUCH! I SHALL STOP TEASING YOU ABT YOUR HAIR AND STOP SAYING THAT YOU LOOK LIKE AN AUNTIE. YAY YOU JUS SAVED ME FROM DECOMPOSING. SO I SHALL REPAY YOU BY BEHAVING WELL AND NOT ALLOW THE BIG MAN IN YOUR SHOP TO HOLLER AT ME MUAHAHAHA

K I'VE GONE CRAZY

had 201 lesson today! we learnt mo li fen fang. poor dingdang had to play yi li he pan and he wanted to change song so desperately. muahaha mo li is nice. anw, had dinner with the same few ppl, namely angelina, namsy and weiting. actually, it wasnt even dinner. the 3 of them shared a plate of carrot cake while i had my mango milk ice which angelina hates.

then i went off to eastpoint to meet my mum. went to the pet shop and i finally found a nice big cage for my rabbit, hoho. now my rabbit's happily hopping around in his new cage, i think.

k, my days are getting less boring now. i'll be gng to paragon to shop tmr!

I WNA GO AND WATCH ENCHANTED! who wants to go and watch with me?

sigh, this holiday is soso boring. i'm rotting at home and i've got nth to do. i jus finished watching sui yue feng yun and thr's no more shows for me to watch! all i'm looking forward to now is friday! HAHA i'm back to the pre exam mood when we still have 201 lessons and all we look forward to is fridays. we'll have our 1st guzheng lesson at 201 after 3 mths break! phew

k, then thr's nth else to blog abt alr. maybe after friday all i'll blog abt is guzheng agn

had prom yesterday! it was nice to see everyone all dressed up. the best thing abt prom is dressing up anw. i'm lazy so i shall not go into details. i'm waiting for ppl to send me the photos so that i can upload them~


seeing you jus makes my life more difficult

k jus right after i finished typing my previous post, i asked engswee to read. then, see what he typed to me...

[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
u muz learn to forgive and forget
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
forget my sentenses and forgive yuanlong
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
INVALID
f.club/ rd 說:
WLAO
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
thanksgiving leh
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
christmas soon
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
forgive and forget
f.club/ rd 說:
i dont celebrate christmas
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
......
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
deepavali?
f.club/ rd 說:
no
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
also forgive and forget
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
CNY?
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
chinese new year?
f.club/ rd 說:
cny i leave sg one
f.club/ rd 說:
dont celebrate
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
welcome the new
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
so forgive and forget old
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
hmmmm
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
wad u celebrate u tell me
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
ARHH!!!
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
birthday
f.club/ rd 說:
hahaha
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
u grow up 1 yrs old every year
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
so learn to forgive and forget too
f.club/ rd 說:
rubbish lah you
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
wad else u celebrate
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
oh ya
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
graduation
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
muz learn to forgive and forget ur class mate
[ YES ] yea deli ink [ everything is gonna be history soon T_T BUT history always seems to repeat itself ^^ ] 說:
as in forget wad they say

omg i feel like i've abandoned my blog. i didnt blog abt the bbq, graduation, post up the photos, yada yada. i've got so many things to post abt! but it's really a lot... and i'm lazy. i jus finished reading namsy's post and okay, i shall dedicate a few farewell msgs too! dont read till you cry k.

angelina, ky, namsy: actually, i knw we're gna meet up v often even after this. so thr's nth much to say to you guys HAHA. but i love you guys so much! esp all the silly times whr we laugh at each other because of YOUR nicknames, *ahem ahem*. i really hope we'll end up in the same jc, so that we can continue all these fun and laughter and... crap. thankyou for coming over to my hse all the time to "study" with me. i'll nvr forget angelina for screaming "jiu ming" when dazzle sniffs her. i think dazzle'll nvr forget her too. and i'll nvr forget the toilet incidents abt ky and angelina. (i wont forget to buy an air freshener the next time) then thr's the most normal namsy, even though she isnt v normal. but normal-er than the other two. I'LL BE WAITING TO PLAY ZHONG JI MI MA AND CHINESE CHECKERS WITH ALL OF YOU OKAY!

davin: omg i'll miss you sososososo much. i think i might cry typing this. you gotta keep your promise okay, otherwise i'll swear everything on your balls in future. i've known you for 2 yrs and somehow or other, we jus click so well. 2 yrs is not enough for me to find out if we're twins in our previous life! and tada, off you go to australia, screw you. screw you for leaving me behind in singapore, for making me go shopping alone in future, for disallowing me to continue asking you for stupid favours. i dontknw why we always end up arguing over stupid little things, but i'll miss all those little arguments we have, because no one else ever argues with me and still treat me so well. i know i've been unreasonable and all, but thankyou for always being patient with me even if i hang up on you, or if i scold you jus because i'm in a bad mood. you rock okaaaaaaaay! i dontknw what my sec 3/4 life will be w/out you. i love you, AS A FRIEND.

chen vincent: hey chen, you're another bastard. i rmbr how you tried to "socialise" with me in the beginning of last yr. and our conversation was "HI!", "oh hi~", the end. HAHA then during bio lab lessons you'll be rotting, because i wont talk to you at all. which i knw is rather painful for you, since you're always yakking away. well, but all those flag raising sessions and lab lessons brought us closer! i'm really glad to have you as my flag raising partner, number 18! in my heart we'll always be 17 and 18 okay, cus we're flag raising partnerrrrrs. a v big fat thankyou to you for always always always cheering me up. you make this job seem easy. everytime i'm down you're always thr, and you're always the one who easily cheers me up. yea, recently i've been demanding, i've been a total bitch and all. i'm sorry for everything. for not being sensitive enough. i've nvr been thr for you when you've got problems. THEN NOW YOU'RE LEAVING FOR MALAYSIA ARGH! how can you 2 do this to me :( it's painful to watch you 2 go off you knw. but at least you can come back often. anw, my hse's always open for you okay. but you gotta pay for all the entertainment :)! oh and dont forget to name your son chen qiuqiu next time, and i mus be his godmother okay. i love you too

dyane: hey stead! our conversations always start with "hey stead". maybe we'll soon forget each other's name and rmbr each other as stead. haha i'll rmbr the sec 3 nov camp whr we opened up to each other, spilling little secrets when we were lying on davin's mattress while everyone else were aslp. oh and the shopping sessions! you're a great great confidant cum stead cum shopping partner. i'll rmbr you as the girl with the puny handbag which can be stuffed into my bag. i dont think thr'll be another chance for you to invite me to SMU to study tgthr in the lovely meeting room, whr we planned our class bbq which was supposed to be on 14nov. thankyou for inviting me thr okay! i had a great time, even though i went to the toilet on an average of once per hr HAHA. thankyou love :)

elizabeth: whoa, i dontknw when you'll get to read this! the time i've spent with you these 2 yrs was great! you've been a great table partner and all. and i'll nvr forget how you taught me to rmbr the contact process. i loved slacking with you during pe, but you really scared the hell out of me when you hallucinated during hungry ghost festival. we've shared so many things tgthr that it's impossible to finish typing them all out. it's a pity that we didnt knw each other that well in pri sch as well as during sec 1/2 because you're a great friend. dont forget me when you're off to jc okay. call me whenever you can, even if your mum forbids you.

ko: stop pulling my hair, and dont go arnd cutting other girls' hair okay. it's rude. and they'll hate you for life. you're a really fun person to be arnd with and i really enjoyed the times whr you joked arnd. you'll always be c-1st! dont forget the c-series

chin keong: oi whr's my ckin2u?! hahaha you owe me that for being your promiscuous partner k. and stop showing ppl your se mi mi de yan shen. go do sth abt your eyebrows! after much consideration, i believe it's your eyebrows that caused the dirty-young-man look

chang hong: c-how! whooo i love taking 12 with you! and i'll miss the times whr i turn arnd to bang your table okay. it's been an honour to sit in front of you. and then we always went like "how changhong how?". hahaha even though you and ph have been irritating at times, i still love sitting in front of you 2!

ph: yo, the sensible one right. you're always the one who "isnt" playing THAT much of a fool. you've been a great chair/vice chair. and of course, thankyou for not killing me when i bang on your table all the time. i love turning arnd to grp with you and ch. i wonder if thr'll be smone as nice as you behind me when i'm in jc...

yuan long: i'll nvr ever EVER forgive you for calling me invalid, when i didnt even do anything to you! YOU'RE INVALID AS WELL.

eng swee: ARGH i still havent finished guessing your crazy sentence! isnt it time for you to tellllll me what it means?

kang long: ahem, stop getting fascinated by your character's voice alr. that taxi ride was really memorable thanks to your character's stupid voice.

ruihao: hey hot guy, stop radiating heat. love, cool girl.

4 empathy: thankyou for being such a great class! you guys have made my last 2 yrs in chung cheng a very memorable 2 yrs. i knw we'll always rmbr each other, and we'll surely meet up even after decades. i cant wait to dig out our nametags from the back of grand audi!

alright i guess that's abt it. zzz this is such a long post.

okay, my legs are so tired that i'm afraid of sitting down cus my legs are gna ache. i went shopping! today's like the unofficial last day of o lvls for me hahahahaha! and i'm a happy girl today. but some bitch, namely eliz's mum, had to screw up my day. i swear, if i've got one wish, i'd wish that god will find some cannibal to chop her up into pieces and use a part to make mince meat, use her bones to boil soup, yada yada. gouge out her eyes and cut off her tongue too. trust me, she really deserves to die. 1st reason being her horrendous idea of disturbing my peaceful and delightful night. i cant wait to kill her with my own hands actually. okay, i'll change my wish. i hope god will let her die right in front of my face. but before that, i mus get the chance to torture her and make her realise what a bitch she's been. maybe, i shld do what she's been doing to eliz and deprive her of her freedom for the rest of her life, muahahaha

anw, i'm happy today cus yes, it's the unofficial last day of o lvls. and i did well for my papers today! which are bio and ss. OMG I DID WELL FOR SS. i even managed to finish the bloody paper and weigh the factors. i'm so proud of myself.

so, i went shopping at marina sq with my mum. then, we decided to go over to raffles city. and of course, i went to river island to take a look at their shoes agn AND OMG, i saw the most gorgeous pumps in the entire universe. but it's like, 123 bucks. you knw the feeling you get when you see the most gorgeous thing on earth but it's too ex so you have to go somewhere else to hunt for sth similar and is cheaper but you nvr seem to find one that's as perfect? argh, so i decided that instead of hunting, i shall jus simply save my energy and convince my mum to get it for me, haha! and she agreed. so we're gng back on thurs to get it. actually, i spent quite some time hunting alr, but to no avail. which was why i finally decided that i shld stop being stupid and jus convince my mum. saves me all the energy. i love my mum :)

k, i'm gna continue enjoying my partial freedom and stressless night. i can finally start watching the sui yue feng yun alr! my mum and sis have alr started. my sis is actually at the 39th episode alr. damn pei fu okay. she's crazy.

okay, today was a good day afterall, even though we all thought today would have sucked since we've got 3 horrible papers including e maths paper 1. eng was easier than i thought. and i wrote an essay that i'm v proud of! although the qsn was on what i'd miss abt singapore if i were to leave, which meant that the content was bullshit. still, i think i wrote it quite well. but i screwed up section two! hopefully everyone screwed up with me :)

oh, the period between eng and e maths was the best. we realised that if we changed angelina's nickname into chinese, it'd be huang boonana. and ka ying pronounced it in a way that sounded like huang2 bu4 na1 na1. so we started joking abt it and i cldnt stop laughing. a form of de-stressing you knw. i really cldnt stop. they were both staring at me, wondering why the hell i kept laughing. so i went for e maths in a great mood!

then, e maths paper 1 wasnt as hair-splitting as we thought it'd be. i managed to finish it in 1.5 hrs, record breaking! okay, so i left a qsn worth 1 mark blank, but the rest were all do-able. i'm jus praying hard that thr isnt any careless mistakes.

walked out with ka ying and huang boonana whr we joked even more abt her nickname. ka ying thought i said sth like apu nehneh and i was like OMG HAHAHAHAHAHA! so we said angelina'd have to marry smone with the surname "apu" and straight away, the 1st person that came to our mind was of course, undoubtedly, undeniably, naturally, namsy! so she's called apu namnam. i started laughing at the ridiculousness of the whole thing, esp if angelina was gng to introduce herself as mrs apu in future. imagine this. "hi, it's nice to meet you. i'm mrs apu, what's your name?" OMG! then, since angelina has a husband with a surname as apu, their children will be called apu neh 1 and apu neh 2, twins!

but then, i preferred long feng tai. so i made ka ying think of a boy's name. halfway through our bus ride, i figured out a name. if the girl's apu nehneh, then wont the boy be apu kuku? i ended up laughing so hard that i cldnt even tell ka ying what fabulous idea i had. finally, i managed to make myself audible and she accepted that name. she even said that the priest that helped to hold their wedding will be called ali baba. honestly, by then, we were laughing so hard that ka ying thought her jaw's gna get dislocated. but hello, i pointed out to her that mine will probably be dislocated 1st, given that i laughed probably half an hr more during the break.

thus, the 2 innocent boonana and namsy became the victims of our big fat joke of the day. and ahem, namsy wasnt present during the whole thing at all, not even at the bench during break. this shows how innocent she is...

i screwed up my e geog, means i screwed up my combine humans, means i screwed up my o lvls! omg i cant believe this. what, i'm supposed to rely on ss to score for combine humans? ARGH

bad news: i kinda screwed bio prac up. i think everyone did, so it's a good thing right?
good news: no more pracs!

anw, ky gave me a bar of van houten choc with nuts in it. i saved it till after bio prac, which was quite a bad idea actually. since all we did during prac was like, stare at nuts and draw seeds. so, when bio ended, i took the choc out and chomped on it like it offended me. it sort of did, since it had nuts in it. but it was my lifesaver as well, cus i was ravenous by the time bio ended.

yay, now i'm off to study for the main papers.

alright, tmr's chem prac! good luck to me, and to everyone out thr, cus all of us deserve to score well, esp me.

k guess what. i think i'm starting to type like gossip girl. i finished the whole book 4 "because i'm worth it" today, oops. i knw i was supposed to be studying, but ARGH. everyone needs a break, right?

okidokie, so i had a little more than a break. i even went out in the evening for dinner and i jus came back.

yikes, do i deserve to score well for chem prac? let's pray for the best for tmr's paper. although i'm not a praying kinda person...

phy prac marks the beginning of o lvl. it wasnt as bad as expected. well, at least i didnt screw it up as badly as some others.

hrmm, today's a gd day for me. i'm in a rather gd mood and i jus helped my sis experiment all sorts of diff hairstyle to go with her clothes, HAHA! then i tried mixing and matching her wardrobe. and we played guessing games. i feel like i'm back in pri sch.

k here's some stupid video done by the guys in my class starring weijie. laugh your head off.



this is my personal fav HAHA!

i'm not supposed to be here. but who cares anw, a short little break wont kill.

main point of this post is to apologise to the same few ppl because i havent uploaded the photos which means that they wont get the photos soon. and you cant really blame me for not uploading when o's is so near, right? HAHA but i promise i'll upload them, one fine day k.

anw i saw this top at mango the other day, and i thought the design was really nice. so i picked it up and then when i saw the full design i was like OMG, this shirt is meant to be mine. it has "i love hk" on it! but i really have no idea why they chose hk. still, i think it's meant to be mine. so i shall save up 40 bucks, ring a ding a ling.

then, i'm dying to get that extra half an inch by victoria beckham, thanks to dyane. another 40 bucks, zzz.

okay, that's abt it. i'm off to study chem again

i'm turning into a sadist. at least i think i am. and for whatever reason only eliz knws HAHA because she herself is turning into 1 too. which really isnt my fault. i think she was the one who influenced me. so pls stop thinking that she's innocent k.

sch was hrmm, alright today. had quite a lot of free periods. mrs lim-leong didnt come in for chem lesson when she said she'll take over our free period. and i actually got so pissed with myself for not bringing my chem tys in the morn, zzz. nvrm, then so, i took a nap for arnd half an hr, whr i slept on the eeyore that was supposedly vincent's but he didnt wna take him home.

had phy till arnd 3.30. i seriously think i'm gna jus flunk phy. thr is no way i can get an A anymore.

now i'm tired. really really tired. i rushed home to get some stuff done and hello, i walked out with this bunch of long-legged creatures, namely changhong, panghian, davin and marvin who forced me to walk in a speed that was near impossible for my short legs to bring me forward. they jus kept pushing me! and the weather sucked this afternoon. the sun was blaring and i had to walk like i had robotic legs. ridiculous!

i wonder wht's taking my mum so long to come home, tsk

thr's sth wrong with me, i knw it, but i dontknw wht's wrong. zzz i cant get back into study mode. and everytime i focus on sth i get giddy. with frustration. ARGH life's getting boring.

today's boring too. eliz didnt come to sch, which means i lost a talkative partner for a day, which is really sufficient to bring my spirits down. davin didnt come too! neither did dyane. i brought the female magazine for her and she didnt come. terrible. that magazine was heavy k!

alright, i didnt do much today. a little bit of phy, chem and a maths, nth else. i'm feeling super demoralized thanks to phy. because i'm telling you, i had no idea how to do nov 2006's paper. and i scored like 29 for mcq? imagine that...

well well well, it's the period whr everyone goes really crazy and stressed out abt studying. gd luck to all!

ARGH, i'm having an outburst of emotions. i dontknw what it is that i'm feeling. i'm jus... feeling sth. like why the fuck is SHE the one who's allowed to feel like she's abt to die jus because her EX, let me stress, EX, is gng to leave sg after his o's? and i'm supposed to be the friend who's like thr jus oh he's jus my friend, i'm not supposed to feel as down as she is that he's leaving. to hell with that. i have no idea what it is that i'm trying to put across.

ELIZ IS GNG TO PANGSEH ME TMR! damn, a lot of other ppl are gng to pangseh me too.

O LVL PRACTICAL IS JUS NEXT WEEK. SMONE PLS SHARE SOME CONFIDENCE WITH ME.

i jus woke up from a 3.5 hr nap. now i'm a happy girl! actually, i was happy before i slept so now i'm happier. hahaha all thanks to changhong, panghian, dyane and davin, my stupid theory of "if i bump more into changhong i'll become smarter", changhong's way of tackling phD, panghian's err... phD and davin's usual irritating self.

zzz i walked out of sch with changhong and panghian. and we walked out of sch like a normal grp of friends would. add a lot of laughter and jokes, minus the art of walking properly (at least not bumping left and right). we were practically taking up every part of the pavement by pushing ourselves here to thr while moving forward. and of course, thanks to the phD and changhong's way of tackling phd by saying "fuck off" every time ph opens his mouth, i ended up bending over and laughing all the time. which caused my stomach to hurt, a lot.

then when we reached the junction, we saw dyane and davin. they were heading off to citylink and asked us along but all i wanted to do was come home and slp, zzz. they were across the road, so we ended up shouting across all the cars and lorries and the horrible horrible noise. then, mr chua called ph and asked for chorchuan's number. ph then asked for it from changhong, but changhong said he didnt have it. so ph ran across the road and told davin to give mr chua chorchuan's number. and davin went on and on with the "wht's mr chua's number?", "wht's chorchuan's number?". this went on for like 10 min and all along me and changhong were standing at the opp side laughing at the stupidity of the 2. then me and changhong realised that dyane and davin decided to stand in between 2 trees, instead of under 1 whr thr was shade. so we crapped and crapped and crapped till 12 came.

bus ride was a long long story, a lot of jokes as well. esp from changhong. i think we were the noisiest grp of ppl on the bus. changhong was like sms-ing mr chua and telling him that ph's not fit to be vice-chair if he doesnt even have chorchuan's number and mr chua said it's an interesting idea! so changhong told mr chua to tell mr faizal. HAHAHA and then halfway through thr's this sth-wrong-up-thr guy. he jus kept talking and talking super loudly, then banging his head on the window and stuff like that. before he alighted, he shouted sth super loudly towards the back and panghian went "SWEE" quite loudly. omg i turned to him straight away and saw him covering his mouth with his hands, giving the super sheepish ph look. i was like "omg ph, was that on purpose?" and he said "no... it was involuntary! i dunno how come i said that, it jus came naturally."

HAHAHAHA bloody hell okay that's abt it alrdy lahhhhhhhhh.

anw, quite a lot of things happened today. but i still dontknw how i'm feeling.

i feel so deprived of slp. thanks to chen vincent and davin santa ongsono, i only managed to slp at like 1.30! and i bloody woke up at like 5.30 okay! that's what, 5 pathetic hrs of slp. thus i walked arnd with zomg super obvious eyebags today.

so, i went to wastson's after sch with my mum and sis, hoping to bump into some sort of miraculously created eyebag removal shit. i was looking at all those facial care stuff (seriously, i dont understand how women choose which brand to use) and then my sis started asking me if i was looking for pimple cream. i stared at her incredulously and asked her if i looked like i had pimples. and she went "no, but i think i have one here, see!", hai~. so i told her, i seldom get pimples, it's more of blackheads. and unfortunately, this lady beside us heard wht i said and came up to me.

lady: hey are you looking for sth to clear blackheads too?
me: (not knowing what to say, i jus nodded) uh huh. (i means, it's more polite this way right?)
lady: oh my daughter's looking for sth to clear blackheads. (then she showed me the bottle of clean and clear face wash thingy) is this useful?
me: no. i tried using it before! it didnt really help...
lady: oh really? then which are you using now?

so i showed her the bottle of eucerin which i use. jus as i was showing, some saleslady came over and asked, "are you looking for sth to clear blackheads". zzz, so i said yes. thr's no harm taking a look right... so, instead of satisfying my urgent need to get rid of my eyebags, i ended up looking at a lot of facial products that helped to clear blackheads.

hey not bad, i jus wrote a rather long post. considering what i've been posting the last few days, i think this seems longgggg.

anw, davin's really high today. but i dontknw why, i'm not as happy as i'm supposed to be...

today's mid autumn festival! i hear those funny lantern music coming from the playground downstairs. it's the 1st time i'm not gng down to play, HAHA! see, i've grown up.

zzz, prelim results are out. i'm not exactly happy with my L1R5. thanks to combine humans £$%^£$%&$*@^%. i jus told namsy i ji du tao yan combine humans. but i'm supposed to love it okay, sian! i still wna get into vjc one, ggrrr

holy shit, it's been such a long time since i've blogged properly. actually, i dont have the mood to blog, nvrm

ratatouille is nice, pls watch.

NSYNC- I DRIVE MYSELF CRAZY

Lying in your arms
So close together
Didn't know just what I had
Now I toss and turn
Cause I'm without you
How I'm missing you so bad
Where was my head?
Where was my heart?
Now I cry alone in the dark

I lie awake, I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy thinking of you
Made a mistake when I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

I was such a fool
I couldn't see it
Just how good you were to me
You confessed your love
Undying devotion
I confessed my need to be free
And now I'm left
With all this pain
I've only got myself to blame

I lie awake, I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy thinking of you
Made a mistake when I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

Why didn't I know it
(How much I loved you baby)
Why couldn't show it
(If I had only told you)
When I had the chance
Oh I had the chance

I drive myself crazy

I lie awake, I drive myself crazy
Drive myself crazy thinking of you
Made a mistake when I let you go baby
I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

I drive myself crazy
Wanting you the way that I do

i suddenly felt a surge of emotions after i read sth. I AM SO NOT GNA BE ABLE TO HANDLE THIS. this is gna kill me one of these days. it's bloody emotional torture.

i feel so useless and helpless. all i can do is feel regretful abt not grabbing hold of the chance given to me ages back. and now all i feel is jealousy for whatever reason that only i knw, she knws and god knws. talk abt the biggest regret in my 16 yrs of life...

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH zzz i dontknw what to say.

but i had fun ytd with the bunch of guzheng-ists. i miss them a lot, i miss niu li a lottttttttttt!

and thr're so many other things that i miss. like i knw-she knws-god knws-what. omg i cant take it

do i, or do i not?

pls enlighten me.

DYANE PANGSEH-ED ME! now i gotta wait for like i dontknw how long before i can watch ratatouille. she's such a horrible stead.

i'm still feeling superrrrr bored.

Hello?
Hey you know what? I dont need this. I can not believe you.
Over her and why you gotta lie about it? Thats it I'm over it!

Every time I saw you
Trying to pretend
Now I think you’re caught in
A spin
Said that I could trust
You’d be my everything
Falling from the shadows
Now I see

All those times were wasted
When you tried to hide it from me

Chorus:
I don’t care what you’re sayin’
I don’t care what you’re doin’
Never really had me
I’m over it
So why is it so hard to see
All the lies you tell me
I am getting out I’m moving on
I’m over it

Tried to walk away
But my heart was sayin’ no
Can’t believe it took so
Long to go
Now the past is fading
I hardly know your name
Don’t know what you’re doin’
Ya lost the game

All those times were wasted
When you tried to hide it from me






this song's nice, i like. anw, today's last day of prelim. feel part of the pressure being lifted off my shoulders. but i came home straight from sch today. i'm losing my life

i'm telling you, these are the worst few days of my life in the past 16 yrs. i feel confused, down, disappointed, jealous, worried, afraid, uneasy, distress, uncertain whatever it's practically everything that has a negative meaning in the dictionary. i'm getting restless (ky, it's not because i'm hungry). i really have no idea what to do anymore. it's like my whole world jus tumbled. now all i can do is dig a hole to hide myself in the remains. i can sense the despair and hopelessness; i've practically lost myself. thr's jus no more energy within, no more courage to deal with things.

i thought i could rebuild the trust between us. but today, suddenly, i started wondering abt whether everything you said that night was true. was it what you said to jus lie to me and make me fall for your stupid lies, or was it really what you feel deep inside? i really have no idea.

you knw, when i looked at dazzle and glitter jus now, i really wondered how it feels if i could be them.

i thought taking a nap would help at least, but i woke up with a heavy heart. i knw i'm supposed to pick myself up, but whr the hell am i supposed to start? how am i supposed to forget abt it and move on? to hell with it.

call me a pessimist or whatever, i dont care alrdy.

namsy, i'm looking forward to my little escape on friday :) i love cchmsgz

tmr will nvr be a brighter day

smone pls save me

this torturous mind game is killing me. i dontknw how long more i can hang on. everyone's telling me to forget abt it and concentrate BUT THIS HURTS MORE THAN FALLING OUT OF LOVE. i cant get my mind off this. and i woke up this morning with a whole chunk of regrets flooding my mind. not only abt this issue, but everything that i've screwed up in the past 2 yrs. i've nvr ever felt this affected by anything.

screw the thing abt trust. i'm not gng to trust anyone, ever.

the words you said; they were like a slap on my face

how am i ever gng to trust agn?

i knw i'm not supposed to be here. but i'm feeling so down and so not in the mood to study. i jus wna hug dazzle and glitter and go to slp. jus that dazzle'd rather slp on the floor and glitter's downstairs for a walk and i jus woke up, argh.

i'm feeling so... zzz, bored. hopefully tuition later will be fun with all those crazy ghost stories agn.

friends, sigh. the conversation i had with panghian the day before jus keeps revolving arnd my head. what he said was so right. he can treat it like nth happened but i guess i'm not as strong as he is. it's so painful. hah, those whom you think are your really great friends (excluding my beloved fruit family and davin) come to you when they feel like it and then jus dumps you aside the next moment he finds smone else who'll satisfy his enormous need of attention- which happens to be almost everyone except for me. what am i to him? i really wish i could jus go up to him and give him a tight slap in the face and tell him not to talk to me anymore. he's changed so much this yr and god knws it.

anw, i screwed physics up.

and hannah is an idiot who doesnt knw what "mix breed" means. i still feel like whacking her. a pure labrador became a mixed breed in a matter of seconds. hopefully the poor labrador wont be put to slp :(

sigh, pls give me the strength

i wna go shopping! omg I.NEED.TO.SHOP! thr're so manymany things that i wna get, ergh

alright, prelim prelim prelim, means i wont be coming to update for hrmm, maybe 2 weeks? i feel like shit

i'm gng to sleep

if i'm still not gna blog then i think i can get ready to visualise yunhan's hands working its way from eunos to tampines to reach my neck. thr're so many photos! i think i'm gna take forever to upload them. i cant believe we actually took that many. but okay, after all, it's our last day at 201 for gz lesson (haha our teacher suddenly said thr'll be lessons). anw, we wanted to go to 201's mac to study, but the environment thr was so unconducive that they decided to come over to my hse instead.

see, my hse has a conducive environment



then we went off to 201 and after lesson, we went for dinner as usual.

we started off with the normal pics










AND THEN, our dear weiting suddenly asked for a mirror. and we, the creative ppl, started playing arnd with the mirror.

that's my head with yunhan's body, haha!



then i've got yunhan in the mirror :)


she's got me in hers!


& that's weiting



and of course, being the proud owner of my orange winnie the pooh mirror, i took it out to do some experiments










two yunhans


two weitings (jus in case you didnt realise, thr're many hands here. cus angelina needed lots of help in holding the mirrors at the correct position -.-")



& two angelinas!






kissy kiss



we tried that too, but we ended up laughing too hard so we settled with this





i've got four ears






back to normal, zzz





today, i woke up feeling like a lunatic, went down for tuition looking like a lunatic, and during tuition, i became a lunatic. i've been driven mad.

happiness is not getting what you want, but wanting what you get

went to seoul garden with dyane, gerald and davin. at 1st dyane wanted to watch hairspray and it was supposed to be jus the 2 of us, but davin and gerald came along zzz. so we decided that eating is more impt that watching a movie because we were starving... and we took a taxi. whr we recorded some really silly stuff that shall not be disclosed (as davin requested). anw, we sat next to this grp of guys that were hilariously ugly and disgusting and has the "i think i'm so cool and handsome" attitude. so, we overheard their conversation (we didnt mean to eavesdrop, but they talked so loudly)

guy: i'm gna go ask the girl for her number
friend: what if the girl doesnt wna give it to you?
guy: i'll go up to her and say "give me your number or i'll rip your panties off"

omg i laughed so badly at that. they are, yuck yuck yuck. plus, the guy who said he wanted the girl's number was the fattest and ugliest among the grp! oh dear...

thanks to my useless bladder, i rushed to the toilet. then we left seoul garden and went into courts, whr dyane saw this pink zen mp3 and an even nicer pink ipod nano which dyane wants terribly. so we gave davin a suggestion, which was to buy the pink ipod, give me dyane's ipod and davin can have mine.

then we went off to search for dyane's gossip girl. she got one of the older books from san bookshop. she's probably searching everywhere for book 11 now.

yea, that's abt it. nth much, but i had a good laugh.

went to watch secret with my mum. she didnt understand so she made me give a summary of the story and ended up explaining it from the beginning to the end! the show was great. i loved the piano battle part! gorgeous.

anw, i forgot to blog abt this ytd. yunhan told us sth really depressing after our chem prac which totally freaked me out. i seriously cant imagine how she felt during her chem prac, given that she heard it befor her prac. it's really depressing. and i feel so sorry for the poor uncle and his family. my heart goes out to him, really. it just suddenly makes me think abt a lot of stuff, even though it's not related to me and i dont personally knw the uncle. they all say he's really nice, sigh.

tmr's sunday. i'm gng to shop with yunhan and angelina for yunhan and angelina's presents (HAHA). gotta get some teacher's day gifts too. zzz, troublesome!

reality finally sinks in. i really didnt expect time to fly past so quickly. i guess i jus hadnt given it any thought before today. today's our last lesson in 201. and we'll probably continue only in dec or jan. when we 1st stepped down, we told ourselves, no worries, thr's still friday lessons at 201 to look forward to. now, all we're looking forward to is for o's to quickly end so that we can resume our lessons. time passes way too quickly. i'll miss friday lessons :(

zzz, so today's our "last" day thr. BUT NOBODY STAYED FOR DINNER EXCEPT THE 3 SEC 4S WHO'LL BE LEAVING FOR THE TIME BEING! alright, we've got such great juniors, dangs. anw, we took tons of crap pictures at mcdonald's. and one with chen laoshi.

when will we see this agn?


201 201 201!



WITH CHEN LAOSHI!


thanks to my great photography skills, i managed to capture the big "M" behind.




we're only 16 :)




ahem, the UPSIZED






yunhan's, angelina's, mine.


we realised that they've got numbers on the cups.


yea that's all i've got for today.

god i feel so stressed up. soon you'll see me with white hair and i'll end up walking arnd in sch with messy and unkempt hair and stuff like that. prelim's starting on friday, and i've done anything. i'm in a mess. a complete mess.

anw, i changed my blog song. it's in cantonese, but listen to it, it's really nice.

you knw, smtimes i find my life being so empty. i've got a great family, great friends, okay results, fun life and stuff like that. but i dontknw, smtimes i think i've got everything in the world and smtimes, they jus seem to slip out of my hands. dont get me wrong, i'm not talking abt stupid BGR or whatever. i'm not hungry for that.

i guess the only thing that can be any sort of consolation will be doing well for my exams. god knws i need to do well.

i feel so worn-out

alright, i just finished my compo corrections. i think i took as long as i wrote it the 1st time, zzz.

nth much happened in the past few days actually. just the usual routine. oh, except oral. but i dont think that's considered as any interesting happening. anw, oral was fine. the teachers were really nice. so yea, i hope i did well. *crosses fingers*

i'm watching this show called tang xin feng bao now. and i think what i like most is the song. it's really sad! v touching...

okay i cant think of anything to blog abt. this post is just for the sake of updating.

just as i was sitting along the corridor, draining myself of tears, a thought flashed through my mind. how many times have i cried so badly in this yr alone? many, in fact.

i was sitting with yunhan and angelina, and suddenly, everything got dragged over to SYF, just because "crying badly" could link to it. actually, i can link it to many more. like during mid yr, when i got back my e geog results, or right after my piano exam. they all shared something common. i held high hopes for all, but they just came crashing down all of a sudden. it's always the "i can do it, i can do it" with "i wish i had done better" coming after it. every time you hold high hopes for something, somehow or other, it just never comes true. it's no exception this time round.

thanks for the B3, i appreciate it. maybe it's complacency, the sheer thought that i could had done well even without studying.

a big thankyou to blackcurrant and yellow banana for sacrificing their recess just to accompany me, cus of our silly pact to get emo together. but i really appreciate it! thankyou loads. i love you guys. and thankyou ka ying for calling to check if i was okay. even if i wasnt, i'd be :)

i cant expect more from my life when i've got such gd friends

LOVE

hahahah i'm scared of uploading photos alrdy! it's so tedious. but still, my job. so for details, pls visit kaying's blog.

heart-shaped pork chop!


typical emo-day for blackcurrant, we're jus accompanying her


teehee


the sweet candlelit dinner


we spent a lot of time lighting all 3 w/out it getting extinguished by the wind




dont ask me, i have no idea either




PURPLE! and that's ky's extra leg in the backgrnd




hai~




she was trying to act macho...


we figured this was the best way to look emo, like blackcurrant




i think she's too tall for this




children at heart :)




that was err, supposed to be a heart.






the emo shot of the daaaaaaay




sry amy! your head's cut off but this one's the clearest :(


alright, so those are the pictures taken on 090807 at pearlyn's hse during the bbq. like i said, for details, pls visit kaying's blog.

then, my sis celebrated her 11th bday ytd. we had another bbq, eck. maybe that's the reason why i'm getting ulcers and pimples and stuff like that. i invited nicole over, cus i knw i'll be bored to death wacthing those kids. true enough, i almost died waiting for them to come down, so was natalie. our butterfry corn and prawn company (is it? omg nic i cant rmbr wht's the name) reopened for business, this time with natalie as our helper. yea so that was how i spent my "holidays". i didnt touch a bloody book at all! except for that 1 and a half hr during tuition ytd, but i still think that i didnt do much cus we spent a lot of time talking abt entering jc and life in jc. yuck, i dont wna leave cchms.

anw, lots of love to the fruit family (saves me the trouble of thinking abt how to arrange the names -.-")