The other girl

Okay, at least it's a girl... You know, I dreamt that Tuck Zai was gay! And he dumped me because his gay partner found out. Ohmygod horror of all horrors. He's still sleeping behind me as I'm typing, so I shall wake him up soon to tell him about my dream (more of a nightmare actually)

Anyway, we went shopping with my sister yesterday and it was one of those rare occasions where she bought more things than I did! Kudos to her!





And then we were off to my house for mahjong! Hehehehe :D



Yay okay now I gotta wake my boyfriend up so that we can finally go get some food. Otherwise he's gonna starve me again

The Long Walk

Hello! I feel... liberalised, hahaha.

Despite having to go through such tough times, with countless lectures, tutorials and make-up sessions as well as to manage my time between Tuck Zai, my family, school work and CCA, I'm still glad that I did go to JC. I'm glad that I'll graduate with an A level cert and move on to University. I'm glad that I didn't give up in the midst of A's (even though I did break down) and I'm glad that I managed to pull through. I'm just... proud of myself. It wasn't easy, and I think every one of you who'd gone through it with me or has once been through all these feels the same. I honestly wouldn't wanna go through such shit all over again, so I'm keeping my fingers crossed, hoping that I'll recieve nothing but grades that I'll be proud of in February/ March next year.

I'm really thankful for all the support and encouragements because I honestly did regret going to JC at some point in time during these 2 years. And of course I'm thankful for having Tuck Zai with me all the while, always trying his best to make me feel better when I'm feeling stressed or listening to me whenever I need to talk to someone or giving in to me when I'm in a bad mood. Uhm, the list is endless so yah, you get my point. Oh, like giving me big bear hugs, my favourite :D

Anyway, for all the hard work we've put in, for all the time we've dedicated to studying and all the shit we've been put through for this stupid final exam, I really do hope that we'll all make it to whatever course we'd like to be in (although I always curse everyone and hope that they'll do badly so that the bell curve will shift left, hahaha)

It's now down to 1 paper, and I cannot imagine what life would be like after this, what it'd feel like to not be in a kind-of-paternalistic school and not have them care for you every single minute. And what it'd be like to stop using my Little Miss Late EZ Link which goes beep-beep everytime I tap it (Tuck Zai! You gotta buy me a new Little Miss Late/ Xiao Wan Zi sticker soon!)

Yay, I'm so glad that I'm still alive! And so, I'm gonna go have a "sumptuous" dinner now to reward myself, tata!

Hello bitch, fuck off and die

He who angers you, conquers you.

Okay, I was supposed to keep that in mind. And I will. Right after I'm done with this post.

I still believe that I'm in no way inferior to you and I will certainly not lose out. So please fuck off and disappear from my life, or anyone around me for that matter. It doesn't make you any better just because you were once where I am now. It simply means that you don't make the cut.

This morning, I stared hard into the computer screen and I felt angry, frustrated, annoyed and very much like a bitch. Now, I'm staring hard into the computer screen again, feeling a hell lot angrier, more frustrated, more annoyed and even more like a bitch. I am totally ready to do something that challenges my integrity.

Okay, as promised, I will keep that in mind.

Close, but no cigar

Screaming Underwater

I believe in fate. Do you?

I believe that my life has already been planned out for me. I believe that what will come, will come. But sometimes, I wish that I believed in myself a little more.

Do you know what it's like to lose all faith in yourself? Now I wish that someone can hear me

Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end

Off to Namsy the housewife's house to mug Econs and Physics! So fun so fun just TWO MORE WEEEEEEEEEKS!!!

Hahahaha I'm so addicted to Cafe World now

Hahahahaha I'm looking at the unopened, newly delivered TIME magazine sitting on my table and for once I feel happy receiving it. Because it'll no longer be a chore to read it! And I probably won't be seeing it for the rest of my life so I might as well enjoy the last few issues.

You see, I'VE GOT NO MORE GP FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE

Yay I've survived through 1 week of exams. It really isn't that bad, I think. Maybe I'll change my mind next week...

What a bad bad way to kick start my A levels.

"A" level blues

Hi! I've not left house for 2 days! And I've been eating the same damn thing (i.e instant noodles) for lunch for 11 consecutive days! I'm having hell of a great time at home! Really!

I MISS SCHOOL!!!

And school food duh, despite the fact that everyone prefers eating at the hawker centre opposite.

Good grief.

I'm finally going to meet Tuck Zai tomorrow and I'm finally coming into contact with the outside world. Hello world! Hello "good" food! Hello xiao wan zi bear! And byebye messy table (it's messy beyond words. I can't really see the colour of my table anymore)!

You know, what's worse is that it's raining EVERY.SINGLE.DAY. And it almost never stops. So no swimming for me. And I can't bring Dazzle down as often as I'd like to.

I.SIMPLY.CANNOT.WAIT.FOR.A'S.TO.START.NOW.LIKE NOW. RIGHT NOW. And end, duh.

Holy son of a bitch