kkk, previous post deleted cus i typed it a moment of fury. for those who've read it, pls erase it from your memory too, thanks.

right, to clear things up in a more subtle manner...

1st thing that i wna say is, i'm not with nicholas, jus in case any of you are wondering. we might be close and everything, but we're friends. really really good friends. i guess it's jus this special bond that we have which makes it easy for us to talk to each other :) though i've only known him for 3 mths (?), i think he's really a friend that i can rely on

2ndly, i'm not gna let anything affect my friendship with him. if i wna remain as friends with him, i will. anw, if i get to gain a friend like nicholas jus by getting my alr-quite-tainted reputation even more tainted (i.e. getting called a boyf stealer ONCE AGAIN), i think it's worth it :)

so yup, that's all i have to say. i really dont care abt what others say/ think anymore. i'm tired

okay okay, i'm the last to blog about this, as usual!

went back to chung cheng ytd for the sec4's farewell. i wasnt really in the mood to do anything, so i didnt do much except for slacking arnd while the rest tried to help out. i sat on the floor with ky and angelina and yunhan, who kept running around so we didnt really talk much to her. after a while tan ann told us to hide in lt2's backstage when the sec4s enter the exhibition room. in the short few min when we were hiding in thr, we came up with a brilliant idea for our little performance for our juniors. kinda embarrassing, but fun nevertheless. ky even said that she hopes her future husband will nvr find out abt it HAHA! otherwise he'll definitely file for a divorce straight away. which is really rather stupid if you think abt it, since javier's her future husband and he was the one who led the performance.

went on with some random stuff, then we tried to lead them to the classroom to watch the farewell ppt. things kinda screwed up, so we tried to entertain the sec 4s with javier and ky's stupid skit on SM. we went on to watch the ppt and after reading ky's post, i cant find other words to describe how i felt so i've decided to jus shamelessly rip this off her blog

"But seriously, I felt worse when i saw their farewell than when it was my OWN farewell last year.

Last year, you know you had to leave. I didn't cry, because I haven't left. I was still surrounded by those wonderful people, even the most gruelling O level days were bearable. I was upset at the thought of leaving, but I haven't experience the real leaving yet.

Today it was different. You saw the video. You saw the stuff they went through without us. You suddenly think, hey, we're no longer present at their major moments. We're no longer actually thr for them. We're just, not thr. You think about the days without them. You know you hv rly left. It's not always true when you say we'll always be a part of cchmsgz. You knw we hv left. It'll just nv be the same anymore."

and that was exactly how i felt. but of course, the only difference was that i cried like ^$&^%£W& during farewell last yr. i'm not as stone-hearted as she is.

i really agree with what she said. i guess what i was upset abt was knowing that they went through so much without us, that they've alr moved on without us. we are no longer appearing in their videos, their photos, their performances etc. it's like it has finally hit me that we dont belong to cchmsgz anymore. well well, i guess we'll have to move on as well. and soon, cchmsgz wont even be part of our lives, sigh.

we left sch at arnd 7 and ahkay sent us to 201. we rushed to macs to buy food and brought it up to the center. then yea, had lessons from 7.30 to 9. played mo li fen fang, as usual. anw, we're changing our lessons back to fri! but we've pushed it back a little, to 7, cus angelina's pdp ends at 6.15. so yea, we're back to fri lessons :)

exhausted is an understatement.

i'm jus going to collapse.

i'm shagged, pissed, and highly frustrated.

shagged cus training was tough today. pissed because my maid tore my black fbt and i've got 1 left only. apparently i'll have no shorts to wear for pe tmr cus of that, ergh. really, of all colours, it has to be the black one. and highly frustrated because of my conversation with dyane which concerns quite a number of things.

and i'm tired of worrying abt all these things. i'm stuck. i cant do this, i cant do that, i really have no idea what i'm supposed to do. avoid? no. confront? no either. screw this

if smone has to go, it'll be me. i'll give in, i suppose

i dunno i dunno i dunno I DONTKNWWWWWW!

if you were to ask me how i'm feeling right now, i'd say "bloody confused and frustrated" but dont ask why.

ever had the feeling of wanting sth so much, but you knw you'll nvr get it? yea that's like the easiest way of describing, or rather, explaining.

anw, i havent been blogging for some time. but i cant be bothered to blog abt everything so i shall blog abt ytd! because i went to meet vincent ytd hahaha.

actually, we were supposed to go to the beach and have a SWEET AND ROMANTIC WALK (LOL! imagine a romantic walk with vincent...) and i promised him not to kick his balls no matter what. BUT, apparently, i had the TOOP interview at like 6.45, which kinda sucked. so, i decided to go to pawfrens to find him instead. we sat thr like for an hr with audrey, and i was barefooted half the time (kinda embarrassing when customers came) cus of the stupid blister. yea, joked and talked for a while then i had to leave for sch alr. vincent decided to send me back to sch cus i couldnt walk properly, hehe. he went into sch and told the security guard that he's my bro. and guess what? today en quan asked me if vincent's my bro cus we kinda look alike, haha! right, then he waited for me till my interview ended (SO SWEET! but cant be sweeter than the SWEET AND ROMANTIC walk that we were supposed to have by the beach!) he went back to pawfrens to fetch audrey after that. yup, so that's abt it.

anw, i didnt talk much to nicholas today, so thr's nth to blog abt. but i'm jus typing this for the sake of mentioning his name, haha! oh, nicholas, if you ever see this, PLS TELL ME YOU'LL PASS YOUR MATHS TEST OKAY. DIE ALSO MUS PASS. otherwise that's the end of your book. cus it'll be filled with maths equations and formula and stuff. good luck, hoho.

THR'S NTH SPECIAL TODAAAAAAAAAY LAH. but i jus cant get my feelings sorted out.

i'm too tired to do anything alr. my hands, my back and my thighs are aching. my eyes are still so dry even though i tried yawning for like a million times. i'm jus... shagged. i think i can feel myself falling apart. thank god thr's no sch tmr. today i felt myself swaying when i was jus looking at my phone in the canteen. amazing, i really thought i was gna faint halfway through the day.

anw, guzheng's changed to saturday nights now, 7.30-9. no more friday dinners with the sec 4s :(

before i end, i mus mention the name "nicholas" otherwise it'll break the chain, HAHA. but thr's nth to talk abt, jus that thr's a little sth which made me feel a little bad.

smone pls tell me what to do...

alright, nicholas is back, with a pudding soft toy for me to squeeze and it's bigger than my tofu! which is quite useful for my ahem, double period econs tutorial tmr, ARGH!!! apparently, we have like 2 periods of econs followed by 2 periods of chinese. tell me abt it man.

we had half day today :) so we ended sch at 11.40. but mr tan released us at 11.15, hehe. talked to nicholas and ko for a while in the canteen, then went off to meet ky and angelina to discuss abt presents! zzz we have like so many many presents to think abt.

then we decided to make a trip to tm to see what they have for us to make the presents. ky brought us to this shop called artbox and i instantly fell in love with it. i went in and i said "this is sooo cute!" like 3/4 of the time. but seriously, they have like the most gorgeous notebooks and organisers. so, i spent all my time looking at my own stuff instead of the things for xxxxxx's present. and ky got pissed with me :( she was like "if she says this is so cute one more time, i'll slap her". and jus right after she said that i saw these super nice letter pads. i almost said it again. but angelina was thr telling me not to say it, haha! i think i have such great friends :) but ky keeps calling me a bimbo, or a dumb blonde... when i'm not even blonde.

okidokie, long day tmr. hopefully i'll survive through the double period econs tutorial with the help of my pudding. wish me luck

ARGHHHHH IT'S ONLY THURSDAY! omg 3 more days till nicholas gets back. this is longer than i thought man, zzz.

BUT HAHA, i went shopping with dyanna today! we spent like a total of 400 bucks? amazing right. and she actually spent more than me okay. this shopping trip was supposed to be meant for me so that i can go and get my boots. so, here's what we bought

ME!
my gorgeous adidas boots (love at 1st sight)- $90
the lovely yellow nike sportsbra (FOR GAMMA HAHA)- $40
the backpack which i bought on impulse- $29 (it's cheap leh!)
2 fbt (1 of them is full lime green omg omg!)- $20

yea that's all for me actually

DYANNA!
her polka dot "xi nan" vans shoe- $89
the lovely bright-but-not-hot-pink nike sportsbra- $40
her pink backpack to go with her sportsbra- $60
1 fbt- $10
the tyr shorts which is VERY CUTE (as what she says)- $19.95

there, our amazing list. and we were only supposed to be shopping for boots and sportsbra. oh nvrm, I STILL LOVE SHOPPING WITH THAT CRAZY GIRL. we finished spending all our money by 2pm LOL. and i was telling her that our plan to shop from morn till the shops close will fail even if i didnt have guzheng lesson at 5.30 today. cus we wont have enough money to last us that long. you knw, when i left, dyanna actually went off to vivo to continue shopping with her mum. and she brought my newurbanmale membership card along, ggrrr. i wonder what she bought at newurbanmale...

okay, so now ann's complaining that i'm not blogging abt cchmsgz. but thr's like nth to blog abt cus i dont go back to chung cheng for lessons anymore! but but i went to marina sq with them a few days ago. had pizza hut, and as usual, i was arguing with javier abt whether my seat or his seat is long tou. he claimed that my seat was the long wei ): NVRM, i'm da jie da anw. they cant stand up and go for flag raising till i say so, hehe. yea, then we wanted to watch a movie. but we missed all the 4+ shows and the next will be 7. they dont have shows in between!!! like hellooooooo. so, we jus walked arnd and brainstormed abt what to get for xxxxxx's present. left at arnd 8? that's abt it.

tmr's friday. i'm gna be rotting at home. anyone wna ask me out? otherwise i'll probably jus slp till noon then watch south park all the way (:

my stupid freaking card reader's throwing a tantrum :( i feel so fed up with it.

nicholas is leaving in err, 2 hrs time, SIAN! to nicholas: if you ever see this, pls be honoured. if you havent realised, your name has been appearing in the past few posts, HAHA!

my aunts came over to sg on friday. and yea, they stayed till today. nth much to blog abt actually.

anw, thr's touch rugby tmr! and seriously, i'm hoping that guitar doesnt accept boonana so she'll end up in touch rug! hehe i'm an evil friend.

omg i really have nth to blog abt. this means that my life is getting more dull! the only thing i'm looking forward to is shopping with dyanna on thursday. we plan to shop like from morn till the shops close, hoho. which means i'm gna go broke. but who cares, it's worth it :)

alright, so here's the post that's for the oh-so-troublesome nicholas (: hehehe

so, today's like the slackest day of the week. nice lectures, nice tutorials (because thr's no econs tutorial) and yea, nice timetable and stuff. plus, we get to go off early today! but i still had to stay back for the temasek ignite thing, which is kinda dumb.

oh i think marcus probably thinks i'm crazy after he found out that i squeeze my tofu to destress and that i write in sth that's like my journal (which is actually jus nicholas' book). he thought i was writing to myself/ diary kinda thing! k nvrm.

went for lunch with nicholas, ko, isaac and kenneth. walked alllllll the way to bedok interchange and it started to rain. v heavily actually. so we had to take a bus back. yadayada, went for the thing at 3.30 and it ended at arnd 4.30. the good thing is i get to skip piano! omg omg hehe so i came home to sleeeep, as usual.

yea this is a rather boring post. it's typed jus to make up for the daily posts for nicholas HAHA! oh and FINALLY, davin talked to me. it wasnt a good conversation though. but at least he replied me, zzz.

and more more more photos! these are from dyanna's phone :) i havent found the patience to sit and fix my card reader. so make do with these first!

mass dance at suntec, again


then these were taken during our og/ panthera outing on sunday!

this is weepeng's sunglasses which is capable of making anyone look like a fly when worn






mingda's stupid face, haha!









a rather unsuccessful attempt :)






alright that's all for now, hehe. wait till my card reader starts working then we can all see more photos!