HI BYE FLY :D

tsk, i cried after guzheng today. zheng3 leader bu rong yi zuo. still mus sit under the teacher's nose :( sry guys but i still have to say, im sucha great big shi bai zhe.

today's the 1st day im being zheng 3's leader and tada, i've jus proven that im unfit for the job. omg wth, bad impression, tsk tsk. wasnt wht i expected. sigh, i cldnt play, thus i cldnt teach and i cldnt even lead.

the teacher talked and talked today (as usual) and was talking abt que xi-ing. he was saying if leaders missed too many lessons and stuff they'll get sacked. i'll be the 1st! i dont understand why he chose me when he knew im gna miss lessons on evry tues. sooner or later i'd get sacked for missing lessons like crazy. yea then evrything'd be fine.

i bet when i was teaching the juniors they were like, wth, she cant even play and here she is teaching. ohmyass im a freaking big loser. i mus lian hao that uh, that that song, whtevr it's called. but still, i wont be turning up on tuesdays, so no point.

DONT TELL ME THAT EVRYTHING'D BE FINE AND THAT I CAN DO IT. befor i can become a gd leader i'd alrdy get sacked. the teacher mus be insane to choose me.

maybe i shld consider quitting o lvl music. dont tell me it's dumb or dont ban tu er fei lah. im spending so much time on that i wonder whether i can rly cope or not. it's like, if i quit, i'd be able to go for guzheng, spend more time on other subj during exams and stuff. so, i dontknw. sigh

who wants to take grade 6 guzheng exam with meeeeeeee XDDDDDDD?